A Red-Letter Day! And… I QUIT!

This is going to be a long rant – but a very non-angry rant. Can someone rage-quit without being angry? Let’s find out! I’ll throw in some images to break it up a bit.

Today I was so proud. I was mentioned on 4chan! Yay! Granted it was on /trash/ and tucked in between all the Katia-porn, but still…

“I’m guessing bdprequel is one of those furries? I see him on tumblr posting and coloring Kaz’s 30s sketches fairly regularly. I can’t imagine paying more than 10$ for crap like that, and I like Kaz’s stuff as well”

This was in response to a prior post about Kaz’ barstreams:

“I remember catching them every single time when he first started, they were fucking grand. They [sic] all the autistic furries came in and made the chat a wreck. So Kaz appointed a shit ton of them moderators indiscriminately. Now he doesn’t even advertise his streams anymore. It’s literally a fucking secret autist club where Kaz can do quick thirty second sketches for easy to please manchildren for twenty bucks a pop. The worst fucking part is, for me at least, is that I legit enjoy Kaz’s art but all these sketches he does are just lost to the fucking ether, never to be seen by anyone else’s eyes but the commissioner.”

Well, in response to that first one, I can’t imagine paying more than $10 either. I don’t. I think every one (except one) commission I’ve got from Kaz is exactly a $10 commission (or less – I do have one $5 crayon commission!). I did commission one for $20 once, and it was appreciably better than the others. But I’d rather have 2 slightly worse ones it turns out.

And yeah, though I like to think I’m not a “Furry”, I’d be lying if I said I’m not a “furry”. I don’t live the lifestyle, I don’t go to conventions, I don’t even particularly love animals except for my dog. But yeah, I’m inordinately fond of anthropomorphic stuff, and yeah, I’ve got a FA account. I blame The Lion King. And Felicia. And Krystal. And Robin Hood for that matter. Still, seems an odd place to post a random furry-bashing thing considering this is one of the tamest images on that thread:

I do regret that Kaz’ commissions disappear though. That’s one reason I scan and color mine – to get them ‘out there’ because, at least IMHO, they’re good and should be seen my more than just me.

One thing that has honestly been bothering me though is Kaz’ continuing disappointment in the stream chats. His latest from that thread:

“Kaz here. Are the stream moderators even doing anything? To my knowledge they don’t really ban or kick anyone. I’d love to shape up the in-stream chat into being less horrible, but I don’t even know where to begin.”

My problem with that is – I love the chats! Sure they get a little bit lewd at times, but – especially considering the forum that was posted in – no where near what’s posted there! There’s stuff in that very thread that makes me cringe, and I’m not easily ‘cringed’. And Kaz’ says the STREAMS are horrible?! So I’m confused on exactly what he means.

Now granted, I yabber a lot in chats. Probably too much. Back in the day, I ran the largest BBS in Palm Beach County, FL. I’m used to yabbering a lot. I grew up on it. I have tried to lighten up though. Let other voices in, you know. But regardless of that, what does he EXPECT essentially anonymous chats on a stream to be like? Deep discussions of Oblivion lore? Opinions on the Hist? More endless speculation on how Katia is going to fail against Sigrid? We exhausted that LITERALLY YEARS AGO!

I’ve made quite a few friends (okay, maybe the term isn’t appropriate, but ‘acquaintances’ sounds way too remote) on his streams too. There was also talk of the moderators. I (think! I’ll have to check to see if this is still true this particular hour!) am a ‘moderator’ there. I don’t think I’ve ever used the power. But I’ve been a moderator before – of a forum though, not really a chat room. I can tell you it’s a thankless job that’s not easy to do. In a chat room, it’s even tougher. Do you ban someone for using ‘f*ck’? For talking about Katia in a sexual manner? I mean really, it’s a tough job with no direction or ground rules. My default is for tolerance of a lot – so I’m all but nonexistent as to moderation. Maybe I’m just accustomed to the horribleness.

All that being said, I’m hereby officially rage-quitting Prequel till the update comes out. I’m pissed at Kaz because the first cracks in the estimated date have appeared. Yes, I expected it. But I’m no less upset about it. But I also recognize when it’s a rage-quit scenario. I’ve been here before. I get over it, and I undoubtedly will here too. I’m too wishy-washy when it comes to this sort of thing. If he opens a bar stream tonight, will I really not join? Well… I probably will. But I don’t WANT to. 😦 I’ve been waiting quite long enough for this.

When I bought the merchandise, it really wasn’t about getting the ‘stuff’. Most of it is still in the box (except the T-shirt. Mines getting faded. I need a new one!) Really it was about repaying him in some way for the entertainment I’d already gotten from Prequel. It’s obviously my favorite webcomic (any comic really) ever. But… Katia is dead to me without some new stuff. The time has come to get this update out the door and carry on with her story. I want her resurrected. If my meager protest – knowing it won’t last – will in any way help that to happen, then dammit I’m quitting!

(Of note, I’ve said that before about other things and been a hypocrite. I’m probably being one now.)

I don’t hate Kaz. Not by a long shot. I love his humor, and that’s why I commission these images too – I LOVE to see what he’ll come up with. So I usually try to keep them very ambiguous and let him come up with something unexpected. Pretty much always has too – which is well worth $10 to me! But I want to see canon-Katia again for a change. Badly. Enough to rage-quit, even though I know in my heart that’s just stupid.

Katia – Parkour – Yoga Pants

That was the commission. So, true to form, Kazerad drew Katia failing at both. Admittedly this is not my best coloring work. Considering the subject matter, that’s a bit surprising. But for some reason this one just didn’t inspire me much, (though it’s ALWAYS fun to shade Katia boobs. I do find myself spending inordinate amounts of time getting those shaded well! I wonder why?)

Obviously I spent like .5 minutes on the background. I just didn’t feel like spending much time on it I’m afraid. I think perhaps it’s her lack of neck that throws it off most for me. But hey, it’s something right? That’ll be the last of these for a while. I do still have Katia riding Bryce from Angels with Scaly Wings I want to do at some point though.

Why We Can’t Have Nice Things

Oh! I thought I posted this already. Guess not! Well, for Valentines day I’d commissioned Kaz to draw that QW+QW thing. I wanted a follow up, so I thought it might be nice to show QW+QW walking a dog. This is what I got. I got QW+QW Potential Puppy Murderers.

Now, I’m probably reading WAAAY to much into this, but I see a deeper meaning in this. If you associate only with like-minded people, bad ideas can seem like good ones due to the resonant echo chamber effect. In pre-Internet days, everyone watched the same 3 TV channels. That doesn’t mean everyone agreed with the same things – but they saw the other point of view often.

Now you can be so selective in your choices that you don’t even know the other opinion exists. And they don’t know you exist. They become THEM and you become US.

Don’t date yourself. Open up to those with differing points of view a little. And… don’t drown your puppy. It cannot breathe underwater. Not even a little.

Kaz’ original sketch below. Yeah, I found the little happy background on the Internet somewhere. It seemed appropriate somehow. Like something out of MLP.

Katia and Blue Dragon

I’ve had the handle “Blue Dragon” or some variation of it for literally decades. Since people called them “handles”! But in all that time I’ve never, ever had a real avatar/OC. A few weeks back during a stream I commissioned Kazerad to draw “My Weird OC”, describing him as a bit like Dino from the Flintstones.

He’s about the farthest thing from a fearsome dragon as is possible to get. Kaz came up with this, which I colored and shaded today. It’s a simple thing, but having my own Weird OC is just… weird! I like him a lot! Though I identify somewhat as a Furry I guess, I’ve never really had a desire for a personal OC like this, but now that I’ve got one, I’m probably going to have to change my various avatar pics.

Okay, enough blab. Here’s the image:

Blue Dragon getting underfoot of a cat, instead of the other way ‘round.

Mostly I’m just doing these for shading practice which is kinda fun. But poor Kazerad. He keeps trying to de-emphasize Katia’s boobs, and then I come along with my shading and give her DDs. I’m a bad dragon. But happy!

Oh, and here’s Kaz’ original sketch:

Evil Quill Weave Birthday

I still do things sometimes. Commission from Kaz that I colored, though I think I just asked Evil Quill Weave’s Birthday Party. Leave it to Kaz to turn it into a pathetic scene of sadness and pathos!

Though it could be interpreted as tears of joy at Faceless Mook throwing her a birthday party at all. (Though knowing Kaz, that’s unlikely. More likely she realizes how pathetic that she had to order her minion to throw her a party.)

Original sketch:

Cat in the Shell

A couple of streams ago, Kaz closed down to go see Ghost in the Shell. It had been a couple days and I was really curious to see if he liked it. But I couldn’t ask in Comments as it’s totally non-related. So I did this thing on the fanart page instead. Wasn’t mean’t to be art, just a silly thing:

But then Protofun did a less pasted-on looking thing:

So that’s what’s on the Booru now.

And just for completeness, the original:

Scarlett Johansson is pretty and all, but suffers from a dreadful lack of tail. Still, I am guilty of species washing since the original anime obviously intended for the character to be tail-less.